Negative enlightenment...
Today on my way home from work, a SUV cut me off on what I consider the Autobahn of the north suburbs. Since I was able to return the favor, I naturally did. I waved my gesture of love after my favor. I have to make point to say that I haven't done that in a while because I've been so disgusted at people that it's become meaningless. This oblivious idiot with the red SUV trashed with stickers all over the back would have deserved a lightening bolt from the sky rather then a simple loving gesture from me. But I love to help out, in any way I can.
When he caught up to me after his shock of "how dare anyone treat me as I treat them" wore off, he started yelling "hey baby, what's up?" Again with the "hey baby, what's the problem?" So, I proceeded to tell him that he was a female dog. Again, the shock was apparent. Then he said, "Well, you’re a ugly fat female dog." I then gave him my why don't you just pleasure yourself gesture and that was enough for me. Then I was able to move away.
I'm telling this story for a reason. First let me say that I wasn't hurt by what this man said. Nor was I put out by his behavior. Or should I say, I wasn’t ‘shocked’ by his behavior. Ok, well, I really don't appreciate people causing me to brake so hard that my purse spills out onto the floor. Or the mere fact of ignorance causing an accident. But my own shock of how "feeling less" I was to what he said to me. Have I come to hate these lunatics so much that they are even incapable of hurting my feelings??? Maybe I was ready for the Entertainment Industry after all. I never considered myself having thick skin, and I've been pretty sick of hearing how I was such a sensitive child. But this is all new to me.
For the moment I am more disgusted at myself. Not for the situation, cause believe me, there have been a few. Where I live, everyone needs to be where they are going, yesterday. So you could imagine how one might have the chance to respond to that in a matter of 20 miles a day. I am disgusted because I have become so desensitized for human compassion that the words are meaningless to me.
I have been so distraught at current events and the helplessness that comes with it. That I thought my feelings were normal.
But then I try to think of all those animals left behind. Why aren't those people being arrested for animal cruelty???? Don't even get me started on that.
All I can say is my anger for humanity is at a record new low. I just didn't realize that until today. Beam me up Scottie! Or at least, get' a move on with that "kill off the dumb ones" schpeal!
When he caught up to me after his shock of "how dare anyone treat me as I treat them" wore off, he started yelling "hey baby, what's up?" Again with the "hey baby, what's the problem?" So, I proceeded to tell him that he was a female dog. Again, the shock was apparent. Then he said, "Well, you’re a ugly fat female dog." I then gave him my why don't you just pleasure yourself gesture and that was enough for me. Then I was able to move away.
I'm telling this story for a reason. First let me say that I wasn't hurt by what this man said. Nor was I put out by his behavior. Or should I say, I wasn’t ‘shocked’ by his behavior. Ok, well, I really don't appreciate people causing me to brake so hard that my purse spills out onto the floor. Or the mere fact of ignorance causing an accident. But my own shock of how "feeling less" I was to what he said to me. Have I come to hate these lunatics so much that they are even incapable of hurting my feelings??? Maybe I was ready for the Entertainment Industry after all. I never considered myself having thick skin, and I've been pretty sick of hearing how I was such a sensitive child. But this is all new to me.
For the moment I am more disgusted at myself. Not for the situation, cause believe me, there have been a few. Where I live, everyone needs to be where they are going, yesterday. So you could imagine how one might have the chance to respond to that in a matter of 20 miles a day. I am disgusted because I have become so desensitized for human compassion that the words are meaningless to me.
I have been so distraught at current events and the helplessness that comes with it. That I thought my feelings were normal.
But then I try to think of all those animals left behind. Why aren't those people being arrested for animal cruelty???? Don't even get me started on that.
All I can say is my anger for humanity is at a record new low. I just didn't realize that until today. Beam me up Scottie! Or at least, get' a move on with that "kill off the dumb ones" schpeal!
posted by Debi at Thursday, September 29, 2005
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