Enough said!

Halloween 2006!

Most Haunted

Tune in NOW for Most Haunted Live! from Edinburgh.

Really Can't Wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Are you ready for Halloween????

I can't wait!!!!!!!!!! BOO!

I love these people! Thank you Todd!

Rest in Peace Steve, We'll take it from here!

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Steve's Message:

My heart beats for wildlife and wilderness conservation - it's my mission in life. Terri and I are determined to make sure we do everything we can to safeguard Australia's - and the world's - wild animals and their habitats. That's why we have set up Wildlife Warriors.

We want to do our bit for the environment. We have been called Wildlife Warriors and I reckon that pretty much sums us up. We're fighting to make a massive difference to wildlife and wilderness conservation, and we want to make people aware all over the world about the environment and just how precious it is - all of it!

Terri and I have been lucky to meet a lot of people in our travels and I come across people all the time who are concerned about what's happening to our planet. So I'm hoping through Wildlife Warriors people can get involved, support our wildlife work and share in our dream.

Thanks,
Steve Irwin

Please give:

Seth (suggested) Resolutions...

One: I will approve of myself, my characteristics, my abilities, my likes and dislikes, my inclinations and disinclinations, realizing that these form my unique individuality. They are given me for a reason.
Two: I will approve of and rejoice in my accomplishments, and I will be as vigorous in listing these -- as rigorous in remembering them -- as I have ever been in remembering and enumerating my failures or lacks of accomplishment.
Three: I will remember the creative framework of existence, in which I have my being. Therefore the possibilities, potentials, seeming miracles, and joyful spontaneity of Framework 2 will be in my mind, so that the doors to creative living are open.
Four: I will realize that the future is probability. In terms of ordinary experience, nothing exists there yet. It is virgin territory, planted by my feelings and thoughts in the present. Therefore I will plant accomplishments and successes, and I will do this by remembering that nothing can exist in the future that I do not want to be there.

The Mind-Body Connection...

We are all IMMORTAL SPIRIT BEINGS who have lived out THOUSANDS of other physical lives here on earth before this one. Each time we die, we return to the spirit world and have a conference with wise counselors who review our life's history and help us decide on the best plan for our future and continued SPIRITUAL GROWTH. for our NEXT physical lifetime. After a period of rest, study (oh yes, you're as busy and occupied on the Other Side as you are on this one), and self examination, we return to the earth plane by entering the body of a carefully chosen newborn baby, just as we had done on so many occasions in the past. The memory of our past lives is erased from our CONSCIOUS mind when we begin a new life in order to allow us the complete freedom of making truly unbiased (and uncoerced) SPIRITUAL DECISIONS on a day to day basis. Eventually we figure out what's going on, live better lives, and earn the right to incarnate on other worlds where "the living is easier" and not nearly as contentious as earth life. As we progress upwards (spiritually speaking), we find ourselves experiencing higher (and lighter) frequency realms. Earth life is merely the first (and lowest) rung of a very long ladder of spiritual evolution. Earth life can be wonderful and full of joy and pleasure (and some pain) if we play our cards right, but it can also be a very trying and difficult existence if we don't understand the Rules of Reality and decide to sleep with those who wish to be destructive and forment negativity or unkindness towards others.

Reality

We are much more than what we appear to be. We base our perception of ourselves on what we see in the mirror. This physical perception is reinforced by society, our schools, and even our religions. We are alone, we think, fending off the wolves who would devour us and clinging to those who offer us support and loving care. Lord Jesus, Mother Mary, Lord Krishna, Lord Buddha, Mohammed, Zoarastra, etc. are thought of as Prophets or Saviours of Mankind who exist somewhere out there. When we pray to Them, we hope they can hear us out there and will come to our rescue when we need Them to save us from some dire situation. God is typically viewed as a Father figure, often depicted as a very muscular looking old man with a long white beard who is sitting on a throne in Heaven. Many religions reinforce this view of separation. Little, insignificant Us and big, powerful Them. Of course, many religions also teach us that their annointed representatives are necessary middlemen required to represent our interests before God, sort of like metaphysical lawyers. And you know how beneficial and necessary lawyers are, don't you?
I'm being a little facetious, but I'm trying to get across the point that a fundamental misdirection has been taught by many organized religions that was never taught by the Founder of that religion. This misdirection did not come about by accident. It was intentional. It is the work of men who sought to gather power and privledge to themselves using the pretext of being earthly representatives of God. The purpose was to create a hierarchy of controlling elites at the top and the "'followers" down below who were expected to pay the bills. A similar hierarchy evolved in the secular world with the idea of kingship/royalty and their "subjects" who again, were expected to pay (in some manner) for the privledge of being ruled and controlled. The true teachings of Christ and many other great spiritual teachers of antiquity were twisted and distorted by these elites desiring to create a paradigm of control and obedience to them. This is not what Christ taught or wanted. Jesus said that "The Kingdom of God is Within". And so it is.
What did He mean? He meant that God exists within us at all times. We are part of God. We are not separated from God. We don't have to go looking for Him, we already have Him within every molecule and atom of our being. In fact, none of us are truly separate from each other. It only appears that way. It's an illusion, although it's hard to accept that from our limited perspective. We are all part of God and God pervades everything. He is All That Is. Now once you start to realize that, doors begin to open. You no longer feel so alone and fearful. You aren't battling the Dark Forces of the universe by yourself you now realize, but rather you have a great deal of help and support at your disposal. You are a part of God and God is a part of you.. You are an integral part of a greater Reality. A Divine Nature dwells within you since you are born of the Father and the Father is Divinity itself. Therefore, you have friends in very high places. The ancient Hindu scriptures wrote of these truths eons ago.
If you study the writings of yoga masters, you will come across the concept of Athman (Atman), or the Godhead figure within. The Soul and Atman are not exactly the same, but the Atman exist within the Soul. The Soul still retains the outer mantle of sense perception and carries the karmic baggage of previous lives. The Atman is completely detached and free of all sense desires or aversons. It is possible to perceive and experience the Atman while in this physical life. When you do, you are free. You can experience total bliss that will exceed anything your imagination can conjure.You will never view the world and its turmoils and triumphs in the same way, ever again.

Support Team

You have a team of Angels and Spirit Guides who have been 'assigned' to assit you during your earthly journey. Sometimes your Guides are changed or rotated depending on what sort of help you need at any given moment in your life. Guides are always beings who have experienced physical life many, many times and are very knowledgeable in the ways of the world. Your Angels, who have never experienced the physical plane, stay with you for the duration. These helpers always work in the background, but their assistance can become much more abundant and obvious if you attempt to communicate with them and seek their help.
One of the things that you'll never hear about from conventional religious instructions is that there are certain spiritual Universal Laws in place that are in operation at all times throughtout the universe. These Laws are inviolate and apply to all sentient beings whether you exist on the physical plane or in higher, non physical dimensions. They apply whether you come from Earth, Siruius B, Mars, Nibiru, Venus, or any other planet in this galaxy or any other galaxy. They apply in all the higher dimensional planes as well.
There are Three major Univeral Laws and many other sub universal laws under the umbrella of the three main ones. One of those Universal Laws is the Law of Non Interference or Free Will. Simply stated, this law requires that Free Will rules above all else when it comes to receiving assistance from higher spirit beings. If you don't want their help or do not ask for it, it cannot be 'pushed' on you. They must respect your Will. In an emergency, of course, due to ignorance on your part, your Angels will help get you out of a jam that might imperil your life or help avert a disaster, but as a rule they stand by ready to assist, but can only help you when you ask for their help. An extremely important point to remember. You've already been given this lesson by the Great Teacher who walked the Earth 2,000 years ago:" Knock and the Door shall be Opened unto you. Seek and you shall Find".
The Law of Cause & Effect is also iron clad and causes us to acquire Karmic debt or Karma, at least in the lower dimensional planes. Once a soul 'graduates' to a high enough plane or spiritual dimension, he is no longer liable to incur Karmic debt. Karma, as you likely know, is reaping what you sow. For every unkind gesture, thought, action, or intention, you must pay the piper in this life or in future lives to come or both. The nastier you are, the more you'll have to pay.
For every act of kindness, charity, or sacrifice, and every thought, word, deed or intention that you perform based on love and understanding, you pay down your Karmic debt and advance in soul development at the same time. Freedom from Karma can be achieved while still on earth and within the phsysical body. Many enlightened souls have done so down through the centuries. You can do it too, if you want it bad enough. The key for opening that golden door is obtained through enlightened mediation and complete self realization. Paramahansa Yogananda and his predecessors taught a scientific form of enlightened meditation called Kriya Yoga that could permit the didicated and devoted practioner union with God, or samadhi and complete self relization while on earth.
The Law of Cause & Effect can also cause things to be created, including good health and freedom from adversity. I came upon an audio tape of Dr. Robert Bitzer in a most serrendipidous way at the Power of Thought School in Fayettesville, Arkansas in the Fall of 1998. It was sitting there alone in a bin with other odd lot items for clearance sale. I think I paid 50 cents for it. I wouldn't have taken it if the price wasn't so low since I had no idea who Robert Bitzer was or if he had anything to say that I would be interested in.
It turned out to be the most powerful lecture that I've ever heard on the Law of Cause & Effect. I must have replayed it a hundred times. I can practically recite it from heart. I greatly treasure that tape and thank Spirit for allowing me to come upon it in the way that I did. Of course, now I know it was a set up all along. That's the way they do it in the Spirit World. You think it's dumb luck and blind chance, but Nahhhhh,.... it's them giving you a lift to get up to speed and move you closer to God.
The Higher Self Another topic that is never discussed in traditional religious education is the concept of the Higher Self. You think there is just you, the face you see in the mirror, and that you are alone in the world. You assume that the ego, the part of you that tenaciously clings to life, that jockeys for position and power, that propels you to seek physical gratification, that tempts you to dominate others, and causes you to respond to life's tribulations with anxiety and fear is the very core of your being, but it is not so.
There is much more to you than you might imagine. The face you see in the mirror is but one aspect, in physical form, of your soul, but your soul is yet part of a larger concept called the Oversoul. The Higher Self is the 'director', in a manner of speaking, of the Oversoul and is directly connected to the Universal Cosmic Mind which in turn is connected to the core of all creation, God. All knowledge, all truths, and all possibilities exists within the Universal Cosmic Mind. If you can gain access to this "Above Top Secret" cosmic computer room, you can find out anything you want and manipulate reality to satisfy your wishes.
As it turns out, you already have an inside contact. It's your own agent/representative inside the "Big Room with the Big Board" (borrowed from the movie Dr. Strangelove-one of the funniest satires of all times on the foolishness of the military mind and the immature egotism that animates it) and we call that representative our Higher Self.

by Ken Adachi

Enemies...

Often your enemies on the earth plane can be your friends from the realms of spiritual world who have come to help you to learn lessons. Instead of hating these people, love them, because they give you the greatest opportunity to grow and be free of your karma.
So many souls have hate in their hearts because people have hurt them or upset them. Often that hate will never be dealt with and will be taken incarnation after incarnation until in one incarnation it will manifest as illness. Every soul, who comes into your life, comes to teach you something. The person may be your mother or father, family member, or someone close, but no matter what they did, they did it to help you. Instead of feeling hate, turn that hate into love, thank the person for being there to help you. Often the person who becomes your enemy, the person you come to hate or despise is your best friend in the spiritual realms, chosen by you to help you to grow, they have agreed to be a part of your life to do this.
When you can let go of your hate for all those who have hurt you, and replace this with thanks and love for the opportunities they have given you to grow and learn, then you become such a great soul. Let go of your anger, hatred, bad feelings, be thankful that someone cared enough to help you. That in itself is true friendship.
Maitreya

There are three kinds of influential people...

1. The fIrst kind are those who speak about doom, about final destruction, about annihilation; who pump fear into the hearts of people, using fear to control or exploit them. These people can be found everywhere, talking about the shifting of the axis of the Earth, about floods and earthquakes, and about the numerous diseases which are supposedly going to engulf humanity. Some of these people are false prophets. Some of them are pessimists. Some of them have hidden interests behind their words. They spread poison, and this poison affects your nervous system and your heart and breaks off the wings of your soul.

2. The second kind of people are those who are very rosy and goody-goody. Everything is beautiful and just right for them. They are satisfied with life. No matter what happens, they feel safe, content, and happy; and they sleep under the blanket of their goodiness until the flood comes and dumps them into the ocean. One of my Teachers used to say that such people enter hell in their sleep. Such people allow evil to spread roots and branch out in such an immensity that people of goodwill find themselves incapable of fighting against it and stopping its growth. Because of their goodiness, they indirectly encourage those kinds of activities which eventually lead people into destruction. Such people are not only optimistic fools, but also cowards, who hide behind their selfish interests and let evil grow around them.

3. The third kind of people are those who see the danger, the corruption, the pollution, and the evil of totalitarianism and take conscious action to prevent its expansion, without pessimism but with inflamed optimism. They see the situation clearly. They see the difficulties and obstacles on the path. They see the growing power of evil; but they never lose their hope of victory over evil. They have the experience that the opportunity of progress comes when there are crises and obstacles, against which man walks with hope and determination to win the victory. This third kind of people belongs to the race of heroes. They know that in unexpected hours the help reaches them and that on the edge of the abyss the hand touches them. They feel that all events going on upon Earth are watched by Higher Forces. They know that there exist higher resources of energy which, in unexpected times, come to the rescue.

(By Torkom Saraydarian)

WHICH ONE ARE YOU?????????

Song: Hot Fun in the Summertime...

Artist: Sly And the Family Stone

All: End of the spring and here she comes back
Hi Hi Hi Hi there
Them summer days, those summer days
That's when I had most of my fun, back
high high high high there
Them summer days, those summer days
Rose: I "cloud nine" when I want to
Freddie: Out of school, yeah
Larry: County fair in the country sun
Sly: And everything, it's true, ooh yeah
All: Hot fun in the summertime x 4
All: First of the fall and then she goes back
Bye bye bye bye there
Them summer days, those summer days
Rose: "Boop-boop-ba-boop-boop" when I want to
Freddie: Out of school, yeah
Larry: County fair in the country sun
Sly: And everything, it's true, ooh yeah
All: Hot fun in the summertime x 4

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Hitesh...

Whoever said money can't buy happiness, didn't know where to shop.

We must believe in luck. For how else can we explain the success of those we don't like?

The trouble with being punctual is that nobody's there to appreciate it.

Life is pleasant. Death is peaceful.
It's the transition that's troublesome.

Lilyopatra...

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Hello Kitty...

Buddha Enlightenment...

One day, the Buddha sat down in the shade of a tree and noticed how beautiful the countryside was. Flowers were blooming and trees were putting on bright new leaves, but among all this beauty, he saw much unhappiness. A farmer beat his ox in the field. A bird pecked at an earthworm, and then an eagle swooped down on the bird. Deeply troubled, he asked, "Why does the farmer beat his ox? Why must one creature eat another to live?"

During his enlightenment, the Buddha found the answer to these questions. He discovered three great truths. He explained these truths in a simple way so that everyone could understand them.

1. Nothing is lost in the universe
The first truth is that nothing is lost in the universe. Matter turns into energy, energy turns into matter. A dead leaf turns into soil. A seed sprouts and becomes a new plant. Old solar systems disintegrate and turn into cosmic rays. We are born of our parents, our children are born of us.
We are the same as plants, as trees, as other people, as the rain that falls. We consist of that which is around us, we are the same as everything. If we destroy something around us, we destroy ourselves. If we cheat another, we cheat ourselves. Understanding this truth, the Buddha and his disciples never killed any animal.

2. Everything Changes
The second universal truth of the Buddha is that everything is continuously changing. Life is like a river flowing on and on, ever-changing. Sometimes it flows slowly and sometimes swiftly. It is smooth and gentle in some places, but later on snags and rocks crop up out of nowhere. As soon as we think we are safe, something unexpected happens.

Once dinosaurs, mammoths, and saber-toothed tigers roamed this earth. They all died out, yet this was not the end of life. Other life forms like smaller mammals appeared, and eventually humans, too. Now we can even see the Earth from space and understand the changes that have taken place on this planet. Our ideas about life also change. People once believed that the world was flat, but now we know that it is round.
3. Law of Cause and Effect
The third universal truth explained by the Buddha is that there is continuous changes due to the law of cause and effect. This is the same law of cause and effect found in every modern science textbook. In this way, science and Buddhism are alike.

The law of cause and effect is known as karma. Nothing ever happens to us unless we deserves it. We receive exactly what we earn, whether it is good or bad. We are the way we are now due to the things we have done in the past. Our thoughts and actions determine the kind of life we can have. If we do good things, in the future good things will happen to us. If we do bad things, in the future bad things will happen to us. Every moment we create new karma by what we say, do, and think. If we understand this, we do not need to fear karma. It becomes our friend. It teaches us to create a bright future. The Buddha said,
"The kind of seed sown will produce that kind of fruit. Those who do good will reap good results. Those who do evil will reap evil results. If you carefully plant a good seed, You will joyfully gather good fruit."

- Dhammapada

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Whenever I'm feeling sad and blue

I'll always think back to Malibu.

-Debi 02/06

Basic Buddhism Guide - Loving-kindness - Forgiveness...

Loving-kindness - Forgiveness

"Please put the attention on the breath.
Have forgiveness in your heart for anything you think you've done wrong . Forgive yourself for all the past omissions and commissions. They are long gone. Understand that you were a different person and this one is forgiving that one that you were. Feel that forgiveness filling you and enveloping you with a sense of warmth and ease.
Think of your parents. Forgive them for anything you have ever blamed them for. Understand that they too are different now. Let this forgiveness fill them, surround them, knowing in your heart that this is your most wonderful way of togetherness.
Think of your nearest and dearest people . Forgive them for anything that you think they have done wrong or are doing wrong at this time. Fill them with your forgiveness. Let them feel that you accept them. Let that forgiveness fill them. Realizing that this is your expression of love.
Now think of your friends. Forgive them for anything you have disliked about them. Let your forgiveness reach out to them, so that they can be filled with it, embraced by it.
Think of the people you know, whoever they might be, and forgive them all for whatever it is that you have blamed them for, that you have judged them for, that you have disliked. Let your forgiveness fill their hearts, surround them, envelope them, be your expression of love for them.
Now think of any special person whom you really need to forgive. Towards whom you still have resentment, rejection, dislike. Forgive him or her fully. Remember that everyone has dukkha. Let this forgiveness come from your heart. Reach out to that person, complete and total.
Think of any one person, or any situation, or any group of people whom you are condemning, blaming, disliking. Forgive them, completely. Let your forgiveness be your expression of unconditional love. They may not do the right things. Human beings have dukkha. And your heart needs the forgiveness in order to have purity of love.
Have a look again and see whether there's anyone or anything, any where in the world, towards whom you have blame or condemnation. And forgive the people or the person, so that there is no separation your heart.
Now put your attention back on yourself. And recognize the goodness in you. The effort you are making. Feel the warmth and ease that comes from forgiveness."
May all beings have forgiveness in their hearts!

Frodo Baggins - January 21, 2006...

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Doombuggies...........BOO!

The Fifteen Major Tests of the Spiritual Path...

By Dr. Joshua David Stone

Dr. Joshua David Stone has a Ph.D. in transpersonal psychology and is also a licensed marriage, family and child counsellor in Los Angeles, California. On a spiritual level he anchors what is called "Melchizedek Synthesis Light Ashram", which is an integrated inner and outer plane ashram representing all paths to God. Serving as a spokesman for the Planetary Ascension movement, Dr. Stone's spiritual lineage is directly linked to Djwkhal Khul, Kuthumi, Lord Maitreya, Lord Melchizedek and the Mahatma. He also feels a very close connection with the Divine Mother; Metatron, Lord Buddha as well as a deep devotion to Sathya Sai Baba.
One day while talking to my dear friend, Ben, I came up with an incredible idea for a new chapter for my book. The concept of the chapter would be an outline of the fifteen major tests every Light worker must pass to attain Self-realization. They are the crux of the negative ego's stranglehold over the personality. If you master these fifteen, the core of your battle with the "Dweller on the Threshold" will be mastered. The fifteen major tests are:

1. Power
2. Fame
3. Money
4. Sexuality
5. Desire
6. Attachment
7. Transcending her
8. Sefishness
9. False Pride
10. Anger
11. Greed
12. Jealousy
13. Vanity
14. Transcending Duality
15. Egotism

Power
The first major spiritual test for every Light worker is the issue of power. The lesson here is either not owning it enough, or when you get it, letting it go to your head. Personal power is the fundamental first key to psychological health and spiritual growth. The ideal is to own it all the time in a considerate manner never wavering. It is through owning your personal power that Self-mastery over your energies takes place. You either own your power or give it to other people and/or your subconscious mind, negative ego, inner child, thoughts, emotions, desires and physical body.
On the other side of the coin one must have power but not to the repression of the yin aspect of one's self. There must be the proper balance between the masculine and feminine sides. They must work together as in a beautiful dance. The real test of power comes when a person moves into leadership. Do they use their power in service totally of the Christ Consciousness and love, or does it become a manipulated power by the negative ego to control others. In essence does the power over others in the leadership they have go to their head. It is how many spiritual teachers, gurus, channels and psychics fail this first most fundamental test. One of the tests is to see if you treat people exactly the same as you did before you got the power you now hold.

Money
The next great test of the spiritual path is that of dealing with money. Each of these tests is like a false god and idol, in a metaphysical sense. The key question is whether Light workers will put the true presence of GOD always first, and put these other lessor gods on the altar of sacrifice. This is the true test of a Self realized being. How attached are you to money? I am amazed to see Light workers who are very much of the Christ Consciousness, except if you cross them over money. The Christ Consciousness goes right out of the window. It is like they are of the Christ Consciousness as long as you are paying them a client fee. This is not true spirituality.
What happens to you when someone rips you off over money? How do you respond? I am not saying that money is not important, for it is. It is not however more important than GOD and the Christ Consciousness. If all your money and material possessions were stripped away, how would you respond? Would you retain your faith and righteousness in GOD? Many of these fifteen tests dove tail together. When a Light worker or even non-Light worker moves into the position of having a lot of money, the key question is does your personality change?
Do you still treat people in the same loving manner? How do you look at people who do not have any money? Do you judge them or love them as you would GOD and the Ascended Masters? If you don't then the negative ego's interpretation of money has a hold on you.
GOD wants every person to have an abundant amount of money. It is not good to be poor. Being poor is a product of negative ego poverty consciousness programming. There is no judgment in being poor, but GOD would like everyone to be millionaires. The reason why, is so all His millionaires can give their money and lives to help those in need. What does having a lot of money do to your personality? How does this dovetail with the issue of power? You will pass or fail on the spiritual path with such issues.
I would like to share a personal story that really brought this home to me. I went through a lesson recently where I was potentially being ripped off for an extremely large amount of money. This came as a total shock to me. I had worked incredibly hard to develop this certain project and I was looking at losing everything that could ultimately be as much as hundreds of thousands of dollars. After recovering from a state of shock, I went through all the possible reactions. It took me a little while but I got myself to a rather divine indifferent attitude about the whole situation. I let go of my attachment and discussed the matter extensively with the Masters. If I had to sue this person I would. Ultimately, however, I really just surrendered the situation into GOD's and the Master's hands and put my service work and the Divine Plan first, over the money. My feeling was as long as GOD takes care of me, even though I may get ripped off in one place, GOD will make it up to me in another. I was actually surprised at my level of detachment over such a big lesson.
About three days later I had a dream where I was walking on this path kind of like in a fairy tale when I came to a metal platform where there was a deep cavern below me. I became aware in the dream that this cavern was an oracle as in the Oracle of Delphi. All of a sudden I heard a voice that said, "This is the anointed one the world has been waiting for". In the dream I was really taken aback by such an amazing statement. I was then guided to step off the platform and before me was a table where I was guided. I had to pick one item, Kind of like the child who was the Dalai Lama had to pick to make sure they were the true Dalai Lama. In my dream at the time I wasn't aware that this was a spiritual test I was going through.
It turned out that the object I picked was the right one. I then found myself walking with this very lovely woman and I was aware that I had chosen GOD over money and material concerns. This dream had a very profound effect on me. When I woke up I immediately had an association to this real life situation where I had let go of my attachment to money. I know for a fact that the dream was reflecting this on some level.
At the time of going through this real life lesson, I was not coneciously thinking about it as a spiritual test, but it was. As Iwas moving into major planetary leadership I was being watched to see how I would respond to such lessons. It is easy to forget at times that everthing that happens in life for everybody is a spiritual test.
I would much rather have GOD than attachment to money. This dream and lesson has really imprinted this lesson on the core of my being and I feel much more ready now for all such future lessons. These fifteen tests I speak of in this chapter remind me in many ways of the lessons that initiates went through in the Great Pyramid of Giza to become a Ptah or seventh level Meldhizedek. These are ardhetypal lessons we all must go through.

Fame
The next great test of the spiritual path is the issue of fame. The three great tests of power, money and fame are all very interconnected. The question here is what happens to the personality when fame and worldly recognition is achieved? How does this change the personality? Does one start treating others differently? Does one start treating others like lower class citizens? Does the fame go to one's head and just inflate one's ego? How does one use the fame - for self-glory, or as an opportunity to be of greater service? Does the fame allow for an opening for the negative ego?
The problem with Earth life is most people who move into fame and worldly recognition are not equipped psychologically to deal with it. This applies to both Earthly personages and a great many of the spiritual leaders. They often are highly developed spiritually or psychically but not as developed psychologically in terms of having control over the negative ego, inner child, desire body, emotional body and the likes. The key with all these tests is to remain exactly the same as you were before power, money, and fame were achieved. These blessings by GOD should be used for His purposes. Know that they are on loan and if they are misused they will be taken away.

Attachment
To achieve Self-realization, happiness, inner peace, success, happy relationships, and GOD-realization all attachments and addictions must be let go of. As Buddha said, "All suffering comes from attachment." It is amazing all the things we get attached to. All negative emotions can be traced to attachment. All failed relationships can be traced to attachment. To pass the fourth initiation, in its fullest sense of the term one must become a "renunciate", which means living in this world but not of this world. One must learn to have super-strong preferences in life but not attachments. The nature of preference is that you go after them with all your heart and soul and mind and might but if you don't get them you are still happy.
In matters of love, that which you share and then let go of will come back if it is meant to be. If it doesn't come back it is not GOD's will. This is the law of life. That which you try and hold onto you lose. This is one of the key principles in understanding the laws of manifestation.
Whatever you are attached or addicted to in life no matter what it is, be it people, material things, future events, sex, money, ad infinitum, change these things to preferences. Some go too far in the other direction and become totally detached with no preferences. This is not good either for they are not involved in life. It is important to have a total passion for life and for all your goals, preferences and priorities, but the key is to be happy and have inner peace regardless of what happens, instead of fighting life. This whole lesson is truly the fourth great spiritual test of the spiritual path.

Sexuality
The fifth great test deals with the issue of sexuality. Are you the master of your sexuality or is it the master of you? Does the flow of your sexuality serve the lower self or the Higher Self? Who comes first GOD or sexuality? Are you moderate in your sexual practices? Does your sexuality serve love and intimacy or just materialistic animal pleasure? Does your sexuality serve just a selfish purpose, or a selfless purpose? Is your sexuality being used also for the raising of your kundalini and brain illumination or just for a second chakra release?
These are all key questions Light workers need to ask themselves with devastating honesty. There is no judgment if it is being slightly misused. As you become aware of this just make the appropriate adjustment and spiritual vow to correct the imbalance. Life is nothing more than making continual adjustments and attitudinal and physical corrections to bring oneself constantly back to inner peace and the appropriate Tao. Mistakes are not bad, only uncorrected conscious mistakes become a problem. The idea is to learn by grace instead of karma. To learn the easy way instead of by the school of hard knocks.
Sexuality is a wonderful thing and was created by GOD to be enjoyed as a communication device in service of love. Sexuality is not bad. It becomes negative however when it is used by the lower self, or carnal self, or negative ego. Use it in service of the Higher Self, and love, and it becomes a most sacred consecration.
One of the great tests of the spiritual path in regards to sexuality also comes when one achieves power, money, fame. How does one deal with their sexuality then? A great many spiritual teachers have fallen when confronted with this lesson. They use their position of power to have sex with their students and/or devotees. We have also seen several Fundamentalist ministers fall in this way. This lesson applies to Eastern and Western Masters alike. We have all heard stories of well-known New Age and Eastern masters who have degraded their standing in this regard. Let this be a lesson to us all!

Desire
The next great test of the spiritual path is the transcendence of desire. This is the main precept of all Eastern teachings and the main precept of Buddhism as well. This is a confusing point for many Light workers. What is meant by this is that one must transcend lower self desire, for it is the mother of all negative ego qualities. All lower self desire should be transformed to Higher Self desire. Many Light workers being confused on this point try to block all desire which is not appropriate or good. It is good to have a desire to ascend, or a desire to achieve liberation, or to be of service. Even Melchizedek and all the inner plane Ascended Masters continue to strive for greater and greater levels of spiritual growth. Transform lower self desire into desire for GOD-realization. This is the ticket to Paradise!

Anger
The definition of anger is that it is, "A lack of control and attempt to regain it." If you think about it this is really true. The misuse of anger deals with the misuse of power. The late, great Edgar Cayce in his source channelings spoke of positive anger versus negative anger. Everyone needs what might be called positive anger. This is like being the spiritual warrior in life or manifesting tough love with self or others when needed. Anger in essence is ego and this is a fact. Instead of getting rid of anger, it should be channeled properly, for there is enormous power in anger. This is what is meant by positive anger. It is anger channeled in Christ Consciousness directions.
Anger when not used in a completely unconditionally loving manner is an attack and for that reason it is wrong. It is never appropriate or right to attack a brother or sister. To hurt another is to hurt GOD and in truth oneself. People who are angry all the time are demonstrating lack of true personal power and consistent Self-mastery. Anger creates separation. The purpose of life is to retain oneness at all times, not separation. Cultivate personal power, a spiritual warrior attitude, and toughness in life but not anger. Chronic anger will debilitate your liver function, among other things. Anger stems from attachment and not looking at things as lessons in life. It also stems from an inability to transcend duality.
When things bother you in your relationships most definitely share them, but do it in a loving and respectful manner. Anger without unconditional love is negative anger and should be controlled at all costs. There is no such thing as righteous anger. Righteous anger is a delusion of the negative ego. Anger is such a critical lesson in life for it comes up every time life doesn't go the way we want it to go. We all know how often this occurs. The anger is developing as Buddha said from, "Wrong points of view." It is not in life, it is in our attitude towards life. Someone who is angry all the time is angry because they are fighting life instead of working with life and learning from life. Anger is caused by faulty thinking as all negative emotions are.
When one moves into positions of power, fame, and money the proper control of this energy is even more important, for a great many people are in your spiritual care. When anger arises channel it into cleaning your house, exercising, transformative journal writing, meditating. Use the enormous power in anger as an alchemical process to create GOD-realization. Do not judge self when anger arises but take responsibility that you are creating it. Do not take it out on others or self, or "karma" will be incurred!

Transcending Fear
This lesson should have been first on the list. If there had to be one word that describes negative ego more than any other it is fear. If there is one word that describes the Christ Consciousness more than any other it is love. There are in truth only two emotions in life: love and fear. All other positive and negative emotions at their core have these as their basis. To understand fear is to see that it is projected attack. When we attack others we live in fear by the Law of Karma operating in your own mind. This is why A Course In Miracles says to give up all your attack thoughts. Probably the greatest test of the spiritual path is to learn to release all core fear and to replace it with core love. When you have released all fear you have released and transcended negative ego consciousness. The releasing of fear is also tied to having faith in GOD and Self. This is why Edgar Cayce said, "Why worry when you can pray."
A Course In Miracles says there are no neutral thoughts. All thoughts are either fear based or love based. This is why it is of the utmost importance to deny all thoughts not of GOD to enter your mind. It is also why it is so important to affirm and visualize only thoughts of GOD and the Christ Consciousness to enter your mind.
One of the great dispensations of the 20th century given to us by the Ascended Masters has been the "Core Fear Matrix Removal Program". I spoke of this in my book Beyond Ascension. With the Ascended Masters help this advanced technology can remove all the core fear programs from this life and all your past lives in a matter of months if you will work with this tool on a regular basis. No lesson in life or the spiritual path is more important than transcending negative ego consciousness and replacing it with the Christ Consciousness!!! The transcending of fear is the great spiritual work of the spiritual path!!!

Selfishness
The next great test of the spiritual path is the transcending of selfishness and selfcenteredness. This is truly the scourge of the Earth. It is amazing to me sometimes to see how some of the major spiritual teachers and very high level initiates still see life through the lens of selfishness. This stems from their high level development in spiritual things. but weak development on the psychological level. They often have not learned to parent their inner child properly. When one allows themselves to be run by the inner child they are going to be very selfish as all children are by definition. This also stems from also just not ever being trained in the difference between negative ego thinking and Christ thinking. In my experience I have found most Light workers being extremely weak in this area. This is not a judgment just a clarion call I am putting out to my readers to develop this as high as possible within Self and then train others to do the same. We don't have enough spiritual counselors doing this kind of work.
We all must learn to let go of our own selfish lens, and see the bigger picture. We must learn to wear the moccasins of our brothers and sisters. We must learn to embrace the opposite of selfishness which is selflessness and helping others. The quality of total and complete selflessness is the sign of the true spiritual Master. This doesn't mean that at times the true spiritual Master isn't spiritually selfish. The key principle here is that they are spiritually selfish, not negative egotistically selfish. This may come into play in terms of having proper boundaries, or the need to be impersonally loving at times, or just taking care of the physical body so one doesn't burn oneself out in doing service work. The true spiritual Master's consciousness sees everything out of the group body and not out of the lens of just the inner child, negative ego and physical body.

False Pride
The lesson here can be summed up in the biblical statement, "After pride cometh the fall." This is one of the great tests that comes with power, fame, and money. Will the ego become inflated? Will the personality fill itself with self aggrandizement and selfglorification? It is in my opinion the number one cause of all fallen Light workers. It is a danger no matter what your level of initiation, and whether you have achieved your ascension or not. It is something every Light worker on planet Earth must be constantly vigilant against. What we are dealing with here is really the superiority and inferiority complex. Fritz Pearls coined this "The Topdog-Underdog Complex".
The other side of false pride is what I call negative humility. It is just as bad as false pride. More Light workers are caught up in the bottom side of the negative ego than the top side. This is inferiority complex, low self-esteem, lack of self worth, poor self concept, feeling undeserving and the likes. It is as much an illusion as false pride is. The key to inner peace is to transcend duality in this regard. Both the superiority and inferiority must be transcended to release oneself from the negative ego's grasp. As Fritz Pearls said, "Laugh them off the stage." To be stuck in either one is to stay stuck in both of them.
The issue of transcending duality is one of the least understood concepts of the spiritual path. There is another way of thinking beyond the duality of ego which is called Christ Consciousness. It is so unfortunate to see on this Earth incredible spiritual teachers, seventh degree initiates, and fantastic channels, be taken over by this self-aggrandizement and self-glorification. No matter how great these teachings, channelings or books, it completely poisons the work and creates a push-pull dynamic among the students. These great spiritual teachers who are bringing through some incredible enegies and information, become synonymous with ego instead of the glory of GOD and it is tragic. It is something we all need to learn from and we all need to constantly be on guard for. The negative ego is incredibly tricky and seductive and can enter in the slightest moment any one of us goes on automatic pilot.

Greed
Greed is truly a vile quality. Instead of being satisfied with our puzzle piece that GOD has for us, the negative ego quality of greed would have us try to acquire other people's pieces in GOD's Plan. This can be in relationship to money, but in truth goes far beyond just money or material things. It can be greed for power, fame, spiritual things, even greed for spiritual growth. There was a book by Trungpa that was called Spiritual Materialism that spoke of such things. The negative ego and the spoiled inner child always wants. It is a product of being run by the negative ego or astral body.
Instead of focusing on what one can give, the negative ego focuses on what it can get. It can apply to spiritual information, trying to greedily save it for self and not share it with others. It usually connects with competition, jealousy and envy. In truth that which we greedily hold onto we will ultimately lose. In truth we retain only that which we giveaway. This is the law of life.

Transcending Duality
Transcending duality goes far beyond just transcending the topdog-underdog complex. It applies to all aspects of life. As I have already stated, in my opinion it is the least understood concept on the entire spiritual path for Lightworkers. The key here is to see that third and fourth dimensional consciousness focuses on duality and polarity.When one moves into fully realized fifth dimensional consciousness and beyond, it is seen that there is a way of thinking called the Christ Consciousness or Buddha Consciousness, that can transcend dualistic thinking while still being fully involved with life. Negative ego always has two sides to it. This can be seen and most clearly understood inthe Eastern teachings of such Masters as Sai Baba, ParmahansaYogananda, and Lord Krishna. In the Bhagavad Gita Krishnastates that when you have profit or loss, pleasure or pain,sickness or heath, victory or defeat, success or failure, remainthe same.
Sai Baba calls this equal mindedness. Krishna calls it evenmindedness ans equanimity. In learning to transcend duality we don't have to be tossed around on a continual rollercoaster of emotional highs and lows. There is a way of thinking called the Christ Consciousness that allows one to be unceasingly the same, always in your power, always loving,always happy, always evenminded, always equanimous, always in joy, in inner peace, forgiving, and unchanging regardless of the fluctuation of the dualities of life. This is the consciousness of the GOD Self. This allows you to remain the same whether people praise you or vilify you.
This is possible because the negative ego does not become engaged. The storms and fluctuations of outer life do not effect the stability and evenmindedness of your thinking process. It is not what is going on outside of life which should be your concern but rather our attitude towards what is going on inside of life. One person can lose a million dollars and jump out the window of a building. This is the power of onesimple thought. Are you optimistic or pessimistic? Do you see the donut or the hole?
Everything in life is perception, interpretation and your belief system. The whole purpose of this book is nothing more than a course in attitudinal healing, to create a pole shift or shift in your thinking from fear based thought and emotions, to love based thoughts and emotions. Your salvation is up to you, not up to GOD. GOD has given you everything from the beginning.The question is will you give yourself salvation by releasing your negative ego completely and fully 100% embracing theChrist Consciousness!

Jealousy
Jealousy stems from insecurity and attachment and hence the need to compete with others instead of to cooperate. Jealousy is totally of the negative ego and should be released at all cost for it is not of GOD. It is connected also with the negative ego quality of envy. We have all heard the term "green with envy". It is very much connected with greed and selfishness. The main point here is to again be connected to group consciousness and one's identity with all creation. One's true identity is the Eternal Self, not the physical body and personality. This connects one with all creation, and all creation with oneself. In realizing this truth every happiness and benefit another achieves is your happiness. Every suffering of another is your suffering and vice versa. One's identity is GOD rather than self. This is a great lesson of the spiritual path.
The spiritual path is really quite easy to understand. If you want to be with GOD in heaven then act like Him. Would GOD be jealous if another had more leadership, power, fame, or money? I think you can see the absurdity of such a thought and the absurdity of such emotions. Would GOD compete with another over a relationship? As I said earlier, you state your preferences in life and then let go. If it is meant to be it will come back, and if it isn't meant to be, then so much the better. Be happy for another person's joy. The key to life is to recognize your puzzle piece, for GOD created each person differently and for a different function!

Vanity
Djwhal Khul guided me to add the negative ego quality of having too much vanity. There is nothing wrong in life with taking care of one's physical body and wanting to look nice and attractive. The key lesson here is whether this desire to present an attractive appearance is governed by the soul or the negative ego. Truly examine your deepest motivations and intent in this regard. It is important to have good grooming habits, and to be clean, and present a nice appearance, and to wear appropriate clothes. Are you doing it to stand out and be better than others? Are you doing it as a seduction of some kinds Do you spend too much time looking in the mirror and too much time in the bathroom over vain pursuits? Some people don't spend enough time on these matters and others spend too much time. They are both mistakes of omission and commission. Be moderate in this regard. Be clear on what you are trying to present. Are you presenting Godliness in your appearance or slovenliness or glamour in the extreme. Be honest with yourself in this regard with no judgment and make appropriate adjustments whereneeded!

Egotism
The final major test of the spiritual path is that of egotism. Egotism goes beyond even pride to really encompass all negative ego qualities and emotions. There really is only one problem in life for all incarnated and non-incarnated souls and that is egotism. There is only one answer to all the problems of humanity and that is the Christ/Buddha Consciousness. This is why Sai Baba states that the definition of GOD is, "GOD equals man minus ego" If you want to realize GOD you must transcend your negative ego with all its negative attributes, qualities and emotions.
Your ego is the source of all the spiritual tests I have mentioned, and the source of all lower self desire. It is the source of all separation, fear and selfishness. It is the source of all disease. It is the premiere lesson every soul must learn. The key to inner peace is to deny every thought that is not of GOD or is of the negative ego to enter your mind. Affirm and place your attention on every thought and emotion that is of GOD and is of the Christ/Buddha Consciousness. It is through this practice of attitudinal healing that your subconscious mind and conscious thinking will be reprogrammed and form a new habit. Your subconscious mind is as happy to be programmed with the Christ/Buddha Consciousness as it is the negative ego consciousness. It doesn't care because it has no reasoning. It is your job as the conscious mind to reprogram your subconscious mind in this manner.
Many Light workers spend too much time focusing on the Ascended Masters and do not spend enough time cleansing their minds and emotions of the psychological or negative ego thoughts, emotions and attributes. The Ascended Masters and angels will not get rid of your negative ego. That is your job. It is done very simply by not giving your attention to it. You don't need to get mad at it for in truth it doesn't really exist. It is not really there. You just think it is. It is nothing more than a bad dream. It manifests on the mental plane as illusion. Its manifest on the astral plane as glamour and on the etheric plane as maya.
It has been called many things. In some schools of thought it is called the lower self. In other schools of thought it is called the "dweller on the threshold". In still other schools of thought, the personality and in others just "ego", as opposed to "negative ego". In my personal opinion I think the best term to call it is the negative ego. If there is just one quality that describes it most succinctly it is "separation consciousness". A Course In Miracles states that there is only one problem in life and that is separation from GOD. In truth we have never been or will ever be separate. This is illusion. The law of the mind however is that whatever we think is the reality we live in. The world is living in a mass negative hypnosis of separation that does not exist in reality. As A Course In Miracles says, "The fall never happened, we just think it did." This is the great law of life. In this moment wakeup from the bad dream and nightmare you have lived for many lifetimes and realize the truth that passeth all understanding.
"Nothing real can be threatened, nothing unreal exists.
Herein lies the peace of GOD."
(Introduction to A Course In Miracles)

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My Best Friends...

Buddha...

All knowing...

Asuras: Beings who like to fight.
Bodhi tree: A pipal tree that is known as the 'tree of enlightenment'. The tree under which Gautama achieved enlightenment and became a Buddha.
Bodhisattva: A compassionate being who enlightens himself and helps others to be enlightened.
Buddha: The Enlightened or Awakened One. The word 'Bodhi' means to awaken.
Buddha Hall: The main room inside a Buddhist temple.
Dharma: Teachings of the Buddha
Enlightenment: Understanding the truth of life, freedom from ignorance.
Five Precepts: The five rules of conduct given by the Buddha to his disciples: no killing, no stealing, no sexual misconduct, no false speech, no intoxicants.
Four Noble Truths: The first teachings spoken by the Buddha: the truth of suffering, the cause of suffering, the end of suffering, and the Path leading to the end of suffering.
hungry ghosts: Ghosts that suffer a lot because they are greedy.
Jataka tales: stories about the past lives of the Buddha.
karma: 'Action' or the law of cause and effect. For every action there is a cause.
Kathina: A 'festival of giving' held in autumn, where people make offerings to the monks and nuns.
lamas: Tibetan religious leaders.
lotus posture: A meditation posture.
lotus: The lotus symbolizes the purity of the Buddha. It grows out of mud, yet it is not defiled by it.
Mahayana: The tradition of Northern Buddhism.
Mantras: Symbolic phrases that Buddhists chant.
Meditation: A method of calming and training the mind.
Middle Way: The path in life prescribed by the Buddha, the path between extremes.
Nirvana: An everlasting state of great joy and peace.
Noble Eightfold Path: The Buddha's prescription for ending suffering. It is made up of eight parts: right views, right thought, right speech, right action, right livelihood, right effort, right mindfulness, and right concentration.
Offering bowl: A bowl that nuns and monks receive offerings in.
Pali: An ancient language of India that the Buddhist Sutras were originally written in.
Pratyekabuddha: Hermits who become enlightened by themselves.
Puja: A Pali word for Buddhist worship.
Sangha: The community of Buddhist nuns and monks.
Sanskrit: An ancient language of India that the Buddhist Sutras were written in.
Six Perfections: The six ideals that a Bodhisattva perfects: giving morality, patience, effort, concentration, and wisdom.
Stupas: Monuments to the Buddha
Sutras: The Buddha's teachings in writing.
Thankas: Wall hangings found in Tibetan temples.
Theravada: The tradition of Southern Buddhism.
Three Refuges: The Buddha, the Dharma, and the Sangha.
Tripitaka: The 'three baskets', a collection of the Buddha's written teachings.
Triple Jewel: The Buddha, the Dharma, and the Sangha.
Ullambana: A Buddhist festival when offerings are given to the Sangha..
Wheel of Life and Death: The six worldly states of rebirth: gods, asuras, humans, animals, hungry ghosts, and hell-beings.
Zafu: A round meditation cushion used in Japanese Buddhism.
Zen: Japanese meditation.

Writers Guild of America - West...

Haunted Dimensions...

Cast from Shallow Ground...

Negative enlightenment...

Today on my way home from work, a SUV cut me off on what I consider the Autobahn of the north suburbs. Since I was able to return the favor, I naturally did. I waved my gesture of love after my favor. I have to make point to say that I haven't done that in a while because I've been so disgusted at people that it's become meaningless. This oblivious idiot with the red SUV trashed with stickers all over the back would have deserved a lightening bolt from the sky rather then a simple loving gesture from me. But I love to help out, in any way I can.

When he caught up to me after his shock of "how dare anyone treat me as I treat them" wore off, he started yelling "hey baby, what's up?" Again with the "hey baby, what's the problem?" So, I proceeded to tell him that he was a female dog. Again, the shock was apparent. Then he said, "Well, you’re a ugly fat female dog." I then gave him my why don't you just pleasure yourself gesture and that was enough for me. Then I was able to move away.

I'm telling this story for a reason. First let me say that I wasn't hurt by what this man said. Nor was I put out by his behavior. Or should I say, I wasn’t ‘shocked’ by his behavior. Ok, well, I really don't appreciate people causing me to brake so hard that my purse spills out onto the floor. Or the mere fact of ignorance causing an accident. But my own shock of how "feeling less" I was to what he said to me. Have I come to hate these lunatics so much that they are even incapable of hurting my feelings??? Maybe I was ready for the Entertainment Industry after all. I never considered myself having thick skin, and I've been pretty sick of hearing how I was such a sensitive child. But this is all new to me.

For the moment I am more disgusted at myself. Not for the situation, cause believe me, there have been a few. Where I live, everyone needs to be where they are going, yesterday. So you could imagine how one might have the chance to respond to that in a matter of 20 miles a day. I am disgusted because I have become so desensitized for human compassion that the words are meaningless to me.

I have been so distraught at current events and the helplessness that comes with it. That I thought my feelings were normal.
But then I try to think of all those animals left behind. Why aren't those people being arrested for animal cruelty???? Don't even get me started on that.

All I can say is my anger for humanity is at a record new low. I just didn't realize that until today. Beam me up Scottie! Or at least, get' a move on with that "kill off the dumb ones" schpeal!

Need a map? This is awesome...

Austrian interpretative mime artist Johann Lippowitz performs Natalie Imbruglia's "Torn"...

The Aristocrats...

First, let me say, GO SEE THIS!
Second, be prepared! Be very prepared! This one isn't for the casual evil human being. This is down right nasty, nasty nasty. I can't think of another word. Nasty keeps swirling in my head. Sorry. If you walk out of this one saying, "what's the big deal?" Steer clear of me man! It's not about the "joke" of which I clearly don't get, it's about who is (and how) they tell it. "Crass" would be an understatement!
Forget about ever respecting these comedians ever again. However, you just may love them a wee bit more.

PJ -Thanks for the early viewing! I didn't sleep that night. D

Frick and Frack...

Ok, if anyone knows anything about Corporate America it's all about loving and losing. If people don't move on themselves "reorganizing" will come in and destroy and positively shatter any joy an office is capable of experiencing . Take my Frick and Frack for instance. Frick moved on out last week due to "reorganizing." I couldn't walk past his empty cube and when I had to face it, it's because I needed to speak to Frack. Now, Frack has taken another position in the company. Before I wallow in the "woe is me" pity party, I need to say that I love them both beyond words. Fine young gentlemen that definitely deserve all the happiness that they will never find in Corporate America. I've seen so many people come and go that I actually thought I could be numb to it. Not for these two. I mean really, who's going to scare the crap out of me when I have my ear buds in? Who's going to forget to invite me to lunch? Who's going to take paper out of my printer when they need it? Who's going to need me anymore? Well, ok, there are enough people for that, but the loss of these guys is unbelievably painful, you couldn't imagine.

I love you both and will miss you terribly!

A whatttt?...

This is Maximus.
MaxiPickles lately.

Wisconsin Dells...

FIB this cheeseheads!!!!!! I believe this name all stems from the fact that ya'll marry your siblings and you realize that we (Illinois) know that none, I repeat, none of you are required to take a driving course. Jealous of the fact that we (Illinois have brains) (and drivers licenses) cause this FIBbing breakdown to occur. I think my take away from the Dells this year, definitely would be that I am seriously disturbed by the moose on the cruiser. I couldn't fathom driving behind it too long.

Fell in love with Esther the goat. At least, that's what I named her. Her name was probably Mabel or something like that. I wholesomely recommend the Deer Park.


I need to talk a second about Wizard Quest. Wow, what a concept! It's all interactive. You have to find clues to free the Wizards then find a PC and type in your answers after you scan your barcode they give you. Great place, but if one more child pushed me out of the way I was going to chuck each one off the second floor. Germ-a-phobes beware.. Also, 2 words: GYM SHOES AND KNEE PADS. ( or is that 4?) And will someone please tell me what the hell is a nixie????

Losing my mind...

Well, where would I begin. Not at the beginning that's for sure. Let's start with now, shall we. The twitching of my central nervous system is probably the direct root cause of the severe uncertainty of my current position. Not to mention the fact maintenance seems to be making themselves welcome in my apartment whilst I am not at home. Pennies on the doors? Hairs on the door knobs? What's the point.
Anyway, this year has been more action packed then I would care to repeat. Work on my book you say? Ha! When? During the little mutt's incessant barking downstairs or the cats constant "counter" obsession or the towering mountain laundry basket that screams out to me 24/7. Ok, well I guess I have the time, but working through my writer's block or learning new relaxation tricks would help me greatly. I feel doomed to the iron shackles of the never to be published club.
I'll let you know how next week goes.
Love
D

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You will never get enough of Ted: EOnline

High School Reunion...

A big thanks to everyone who planned the reunion activities.
I am sorry I was only able to make the Casual Friday.
Everyone looked awesome! I've missed you.
Looking forward to more activities.
D

New kitty...

This is Tiffany. What a pain in the ass!! Said lovingly!

Monkey Boy...

Bitsy...

This is Bitsy. 1990-2005
-A part of my soul is missing.

Vegas...

Mike and I went to Vegas again. Fun times. Lost my ass! Doomed to lose after that big win. Don't people dress up anymore???? Maybe they are too hung over to notice. Boy, would I love to shove those cigarettes up their asses.

For all those who don't know slot machine etiquette, may 1000000 flees infest your arm pits!

Christa Boo
I love you!!

Los Angeles...

I went to see Val for a long weekend. I love LA, so it was a great visit. I had been missing Val very much. She's a beautiful woman, a beautiful soul and the best friend I've ever had. It's hard to have such a great friend living so far away. The last day there, I got so sick I wanted to kill myself. We went to the pet shop at the Beverly Center. Well, that wasn't the main reason we went there, but I wanted to see the puppies. I wouldn't have wanted to hold the little black bastard Pomeranian if I knew it had poop all over it. How NICE for me! Do you have any idea about what I wanted to do to that dumbass high school girl that handed me the dog?? Anyway,...I took my shirt off for the ride back to Val's house. I really didn't want the crap to be all over Val's car. She wasn't too happy with me either and her friend couldn't stop laughing. I had my shirt draped over me, but when stopped at a stop light and a Priest was walking across the street staring at me, the laughter was just outright unavoidable. I almost peed my pants from laughing so hard. And I thought it couldn't get worse.
I was a pretty good sport about it all.

I no longer want a dog.

My Wallpaper...